boys are asses.

boys are seriously retarded. when you say anything that makes compleat sense and they know it does but to make you look like an idiot they try to pick out way and twist it to where it dosnt make any sense. they are so stupid if they actually think there not going to notice. they are compleat idiots. i hate my life. i hate boys. i hate everything and i wish this world would just end before its to late.

love suck.....

so i have come to the conclusion that love sucks. because no matter how much you care about someone they will never care about you as much back. and i know most of you are probly thing your just a kid, you dont know what love is. but i do. trust me i know what love is. i know im in love with someone and have been for a really long time. and it makes me sad that he tells me he loves me but i no longer trust it. i know no not to trust anyone anymore and i dont think i will because trusting people has just ruined everything becaue everyone has broke n my trust and it sadens me that everyone is just that mean and terrible. so yea. i just hope the guy that i love knows that i love him and i hope he knows that im talking about him. and that i hope hes always going to be in my heart.

random rambleings.

so it uhhh sucks being single. especially at my age. all guys care about is sex. its so dumb. i know this probly dosnt make any sense since im a virgin but i dont find sex appealing at all unless its with a person you absolutly love with all your heart. but all they do is just go around and fuck. there like forest creatures. its disturbing. they really dont even deserve to be introduced to the dang light untill they have matured enough. there like dogs. you have to feed them and clean them and take care of them and most of them dont even know there sexuality yet so they pretty much make you be the guy in the relationship. it just sucks. sorry for my random rambleings.

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so today i went to church and i felt alot better about myself. it was fun. i actually sang the songs and they were very nice. and i met some pretto cool people. and i had a very good time. and theres this guy that i like that i go to church with. and ive liked him for a while. and he pretty much told me that he loved me a few days ago and i thought he was serious. and then today i tried talking to him at church and he didnt really talk to me. and it kindof made me sad. so i started to text him when we went to tim hortons after church and i was just being stupid and saying random things to him. then i said he hated me and i was just messing around. and then he said that he did. and i thought he was kidding too but i guess he wasnt. and then i asked him if he still liked me and he said no. and i asked him why and he said because hes a man whore. and that really made me feel bad. i feel absolutly terrible right now. i thought he was serious and that he really did like me. i thought he wasnt just one of the other guys that wanted to use me. but i guess i was wrong. thats all that ever seems to happen to me. i always get pushed to the side and ignored. i hate it. if all these other girls get to be with such great guys then why cant i? why cant there just be one guy that will love me and care for me and not be mean? i guess ill just never find that right person. i should be use to it by now. ill just............i dont know.

broken life

with all that is going on,
your always in my mind,
always in my heart,
always wasting my time.
it will never happen again, you promise.
but that always changes.
there was never a moment when your voice wasnt soothing.
and there was never a moment where you didnt keep me moving.
my heart is becoming torn with all you put me through.
and i will keep my promise,
it IS because of you.
you chose her over me and all i can see
is that fact that you dont love me.
you have fallin for her,
although shes not right for you,
but......
i hope your happy.
with her.whore.
someone who could never love you.
someone who will only play you.
you know i have been in love with you,
since the beginning of time.
but i guess you dont love me anymore.
goodbye the one,
who once was mine </3
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is this normal?

ok so im a junior in highschool. and theres this freshmen that is in my orchestra class and ive been trying to talk to him all year but every time i try to talk to him he looks at me compleatly petrified, then starts giggleing histaricly then runs off or attempts too. and i think hes really cute and i just want to talk to him. and everyone is just like hes really shy and stuff and ive never met anyone as shy as him. its come to the point to where i think he actually hates me and now im scared to talk to him because im under the impression that he wants me dead. although my friends say he dosnt hate me at all. but its scary. and im just wondering if its normal for a junior to be this scared of a freshmen? like i dated a freshmen last year too and i wasnt really scared at all, but then again he actually talked to me. and i dont understand what it means when any guy at all just stares at you like there really really really really really really really scared and starts giggleing. it concerns me terribly. but if you have any answers on this at all and if your actually reading this, please give me some advice because i would really like to know.

men are pigs.

ok, for the past few days a few people have been asking me the same questions. they all consist of sexual things. and im still a virgin and its really stupid because its not like there joking like there actually being serious. its terrible. its like, is this what the world has come too? come on, for real. do you think that your actually going to get a girl if you have only talked to them a few times, havnt even had a real conversation with them and just walk up to them and ask them if there dtf? no. no female in there right mind would go with a guy that does that. its unappealing when they ask those types of questions. and especially when they just sit there and try to convince you that your going to like it when you dont even have feelings for them. its an obvious no. but there just to ignorant to understand simple, two lettred words. and it was probly even there first word but they still dont understand. and its just like dude you dont know me so why do you think i would like anything with you expecially if i dont have any sexual attraction nor emotional attraction towards you? that just shows how this world has just turned into hell over the years. nobody cares about personality anymore. and like if you dont like the way they act then you probly wont like being with them weather its a one night stand or a lasting relationship. and what if you think the girl is a dumb bitch but you think shes hot so you fuck her and then you get her pregnant? then what the hell are you going to do? your stuck with the girl who you find quite stupid for the rest of your life and its just like way to go buddy. i just wish everything wasnt so based on looks today. hopefully it will get better in the future. oh great and now theres a crazy lady at my house. yay.

EmmSeeKone says #1

i say that skinny males are far more attractive than musccular males. like its just really awkward when a guy is really really muscular. its really kindof gross. its like dude. what the firetruck? and i dont like it. but with skinny guys, they can wear skinny jeans and look good and can pull off long hair and are just so dang cute. its awesome. i wish all guys wore skinnys, band tees and skate shoes and played guitar or just did somthing musical. it would be so much awesomer dude. like for real. gir. why can all guys be like this?